in this gu gu world no money mean no everything...sigh..

遇上你那天起生命开始出现了奇迹天空笑得好美丽把手放进你手里心里默默宣誓只爱你一辈子也能肯定只是爱让人伤得再彻底在我的眼里还是会相信最真的人最后一定可以找到幸福途径
爱会让我坚强让我哭泣让我不懂我自己只有你的微笑来安抚我的心陪你走过狂风暴雨的日子等待的是天晴一起创造这场最完美的爱情我愿意
遇上你那天起生命开始出现了奇迹天空笑得好美丽把手放进你手里心里默默宣誓只爱你一辈子也能肯定只是爱让人伤得再彻底在我的眼里还是会相信最真的人最后一定可以找到幸福的途径爱会让我坚强让我哭泣让我不懂我自己只有你的微笑来安抚我的心陪你走过狂风暴雨的日子等待的是天晴一起创造这场最完美的爱情我愿意爱会让我坚强让我哭泣让我不懂我自己只有你的微笑来安抚我的心陪你走过狂风暴雨的日子等待的是天晴一起创造这场最完美的爱情我愿意
我愿意

tired...very tired

i realised that ure not the talkative u that loves talking to me that much online alrd..last time when u were chasing after me u talk so much think of how to win my heart..but its no long there anymore.i feel that u got lazy over everything.....

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humph..dear diary

i duno whats really gonna on with me): i feel unhappy and sad very easily lately..and i duno how..
i really wish that i could do sth abt it but..i duno how...its just cannot be control.
i really love him..but i dislike it when i feel like..hey, he's not like the very first time when we met..someone whose willing to spend time with me..like take me to the park for a stroll..someone who loves to hug and kiss me...someone that wanna bring me to the beach jus to see the sun rise....

my friends like to ask me u and ur bf how alrd?..good anot?..where u guys always go for date...den they will start saying..me and my bf go to this place that place....u been there? ..........erm..no?and alot more other stupid qns that will make a girl feel very sad and jealous....maybe my life isnt as good as u guys ba.but im sure that one day i will go round the world.and visit much more places den all of u.

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dear dairy

i think this is a very good place to vent my frustrations besides crying my heart out..
it became a habit for me to blog when im very sad or happy.ha ha

that 2 weeks of suffering was finally over..chicken pox really make me felt like im in hell..though its all over now..but there are still scars left behind...really need time to let them disappear..

well...been 9 months together...i guess u also dun rem..i felt that our honey moon period is really over..really! i think the honey mood period last for about 6months..i think is consider not bad alrd..ha ha..nevermind...hmm..now all the problems starts to appear..i duno wad he dun like about me..but im just upset that he cant give me his time,his company,his attention...we dun kiss like we always do when we were together at the beginning,no longer hug or kiss as much as we see each other in the pass...duno issit becos he dun love me as much as the past?or is his finances bothering him so much so that he really got so distracted..and forget about me sometimes?hmm..i really wish that we could really communicate more.hug more and kiss more to mantain this love run.i dk about you but i felt thatt way.i wanna love you more each day...like even more den the very first time i met you.i really understand your situation dear..i really hope that u could get out from what ure gg thru asap.i know its tiring..its mentally so stressful for u..when i saw u throwing temper,when u vent ur anger on ur things the very first time infront of me..i got very afraid..

afterall you know i love u alot dear..its love that keep me going on..pressing in..loving you even more..
i guess my birthday wish every year would be you getting out of debt till ur out of it.i really wish that you could be happier in everything that you do(:

well...went ikea,courts and giant last weekend..was quite a fun trip..but waited for the shuttle bus for damn bloody long!ZZZZZzzzzzz... but nevermind u were there for me..

never give up..im here for you

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i love my deardear..i love him so much..youre always busy but i know ure trying your best to give me what i always wanna.thank you dear.

thanks for always being so sweet and patience with me..ha ha..
well im also trying to not to fan you tat much liao..u know u know?(: (:
i love you luh deardear..you know? very very much(: ha ha
like soooooooooo much..(:

and and i wanna faster recover frm chicken poxy!!!!!!!!

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i think we're not doing well..why must i always feel so much for someone?and think so much for someone? i seriously feel very sian..i duno how luh...but again if i dun think for him..i may be selfish..not understanding..inconsiderate?? issit really too much?
sigh..i really duno how.when i get so into him den i realised that he's not able to spare me his time.to spend quality time with me......nt doing anything but jus talk about everything and anything under the sun.its like impossible....

):

(:

i dont normally envy other people's relationship.but time i really do..they were together for 4 years and still growing sweet,strong and steady.they were contented with what they had...and they enjoyed each other's company very much.pillar for each other.being accountable to each other..i think they're the only couple that i envy and look upon..that's really love luh..compared to others tt break up in 1-2 mnths time..and quarrel over silly things...

well,i seriously envy them and i really wish that mine can be like theirs.

forgiven...

1210am

i couldnt sleep ):

):

i was quite..but actually very upset..and disappointed...i really think that being honest to your partner is the most important thing too besides trust..i have been swallowing all the unhappiness the past weeks and i just felt that you are not speaking what u actaully think..im seriously very disappointed...i accidentally log into the wrong msn acc and this msn chat box pop out few weeks ago.it was the girl that i din like.she's his ex..she always call him up to ask for this and that..which im very annoyed..and he always tell me that i dun feel like talking to her just wanna put down the phone quick..but i dun see that its liddat..u guys talk on msn..im fine..but why must you tell her those not very nice things in your r/s?u din care about my feelings..im the stupid one that always talk good about you infront of my parents my bestest girlfriend..i tot that i wounldnt be hurt anymore..i really hate this kind of feelings..pls dun sweet talk about how good i am when u also use it on other girls ..i was totally wrong about you...

i waited for 4 bloody months for you....and.....sigh

please...tell me that you love me and you miss me when u really mean it..i seriously feel very disgusted..

memories that i will always treasure

"to have and to hold i love you till forever"

2march09

mao tiun..deardear say humans are very mao tiun..haha..
i also think that im very mao tiun at times too..duno want or dun wan..hmm..sometimes in love you will also feel the same..when feel so in love with a partner you will want that person to stay with you for the rest of your life..but once you quarrel you will feel irritated you wont have the feeling to want to stay with that person at times..especially guys that dun wanna be responsible to what they have done....but some they took up the responsiblities but its no longer love..for wad?i think that they're not guys..

i believe that there were once u feel so eager to start a family with her to love her and treasure her with all your heart...to give her your very best..but that little someone came to earth too early by mistake..and now everything changes...

your attitude towards your wife changes ..your body language changes ..always venting your unhappiness and frustration on her..giving her the feeling that she's not so important anymore...to a young lady that love u so much and sacrifice for you..you treated her this way..you shout at her whenever youre unhappy..tell her off that becos she din study well ..she cant have a high pay job..it so demoralizing..so selfish of him to not think of the wife feelings.always think that your own parents are right..only listen to you own parents..telling your wife that she's not suppose to go back to her mum's place so often anymore even if he's not ard reason becos ure marry to me you shldnt go back so often...to my opinion i feel that why are you still staying with your parents?since you told your wife that ure marry to me..ure also marry to her wad..u yourself shouldnt cling on to your parents so much too.. so heartbroken when u hear of all these stories..getting married is not abt marrying only the wife or husband its always the two families..

in this broken down world there's so much unhappiness den happiness..sometimes its really hard to believe someone's promise to you...your marriage can be hell on earth if u marry the wrong person.

(:

i was bored till...haha

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(:

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i suddenly miss shopping and just shopping..chilling out with my bestest girlfren.i suddenly miss doing lots of things that i used to do in the past..hmm...

mummy's down with chicken pox lately..and i felt so disgusted..sigh.so afraid that i might get it..and i might have scars after i recover): sobsob...so sad can):

i had a good day spend with baby ystd....playing games together and going out to buy food and groceries home ..the feeling is so very sweet.. look forwad for more time spend with you dear..sweet quality time that i always wanted!(: i thank god that you were always there most of the time when i needed someone to talk to,talk nonsense with...someone who always ask me lame jokes questions to make me laugh..someone who would really try his very best to just make me happy and see me smile.someone who's willing to tell me it okay dear its alright in his embrace and tell me that he loves me... i always look forward to see you all day long...to cherish and love u as much as i can(:

i love u baby...
and its so so so so so very much.

love you(:

shit

so shitty......sigh

L O V E

i love you-you accept me as who i am
i love you-you were sweet
i love you-you were caring
i love you-you were sensitive
i love you-you were patience
i love you-you were kind hearted
i love you-you were an encourager
i love you - you stood by me
i love you-your lame jokes make me smile
i love you -you try to be there for me all the time
i love you-you were understanding
i love you-you wiped off my tears all the time
i love you-you smile at me
i love you-you suprised me
i love you-you told me how much i mean to you
i love you-you love hugging me
i love you-you brighten up my day
i love you-you kissed me on my lips each time you see me
i love you-you told me how much you love me
i love you-you told me u love me till infinity
i love you -cause you said i love you dear
i love you- you showed me whats love is really all about.

me

sitting in the bus on the way to the airport...thinking of lots of things..my life,my family, elrond and friends.sometimes your family may not understand and may not be the one that comfort you after every failure or any unhappy moment you encounter..thats quite disappointing eh?? but i thank God for friends, friends thats willing to be there for you and hear your heart out.yeah, i thank God for pam.my mood was better after talking to her that night.been so long i last met up with her..and feels like we have never ending stuff to talk about.

actually i wasnt feeling very happy lately..over job and some personal stuff..there's so many things in my mind..and my heart..i know ure gg thru more stuff den me baby..but i wanna let u know that i care and i love u. things would be better..i really hope that you can be happier if not my mood will always be affected.and the both of us wont be happy.

i love you

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thank you dear for everything(:

happy valentine day dear..i look forward for more v.day to spend with you.

i love you

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR(:

i feel kinda of sad and bad that we din manage to blow and cut a cake for your birthday..

i really wish we could...i really hope that next year would be better..

i love you baby..(:


LOVES

): so upset

sigh..why everything ended up liddat...it became something that im afraid of doing..my mood just went swinging up and down...faint..i duno since when i became liddat.the feeling suck and so shitty.sigh.GOD.. HELP!! im in a situation that i duno how to overcome by myself despite encouragement from friends and love ones i still couldnt do it..i feel so er.....!!!!!

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a person that is in the transition period always need their love ones to be around for them.

:D

loves deardear so much

east coast

(: happy happy..
every moment with you is so so so precious
i love u baby

真实 - 张惠妹

真实

你说的话在我心中生了根爱得很深所以心很疼记忆在我的心中翻滚是不是每一个人都像我一样笨只怕再问对彼此都太残忍我能感觉另外一个人我等等笑容换成泪痕爱在崩溃的时候比较真太多疑问知道答案又如何原来容忍不需要天份只要爱错一个人心痛比快乐更真实爱为何这样的讽刺我忘了这是第几次一见你就无法坚持孤独比拥抱更真实爱让人失去了理智会不会是我太自私拒绝更寂寞的日子放不开也看不见未来难道这种不完美才是爱情真实的样子

baby

i duno why i just feel like blogging about you.its 12 midnight now..i guess ure preparing to sail off..sigh this time is a long one..5 days): my mind was full of you when i was in class just now.i jus counldnt stop i duno why.

i feel real bless realising that baby actually loved me so much..and im really amazed by his acts of love towards me..i always though that love aint as sweet and loving as it shld be..always have the mindset that love is always about fights,quarrels,unhappiness,bitterness,tears and only 1 percent of love and romance..

ever since baby stepped into my life..he filled my life with laughter and joy..i started to realised that love isnt so painful after all..i really feel that im much much more happier now..feels like years that we have been together...going on hol trips,movies,dinners..family day together... is always so memorable..im always enjoying every moment with you beside me.without you i wont feel complete...this is the first time i say without this person i wont feel complete.you really mean alot to me.so continue to love me even more!ha ha..

i know ure gg thru alot now, i know i cant do much..i really wish i could...but please know that im always there by ur side,supporting you..and to be your pillar of strength wherever you are..never give up dear..your love ones is always backing you up...

your love has cover up all your imprefection...

i love you sweetheart(:

3feb09

im still in the process in getting use to the life im having now...in a weeks time i will be up in the air.i wonder how its gonna happen..feeling excited,yet nervous...so many things to look thru and remember..
dearie has been very busy too..with work ..duties after another..and many many more stuff..Feb is his busy month.. have lots of sailing out in the sea..meeting up is again so difficult..i duno when will i get use to the life im hving now.so difficult at times..when i miss him like hell.. in fact always,many times i will just cry..thruout my whole entire life i have never ever felt this way before..missing someone so much..thinking of him all day long..faint**** ha ha...i seriously cherish this sweetheart of mine..always giving me his fullest support be it mentally or physically..

dearie always try his very best to be there for me..giving his 101% in our relationship..waking up early just to send me to work.fetching me up and down to work and back home..not every guy can do this luh..and i really appreciate him for every single effort that he has given..i love you dear so much and i know u love me so so much too..
when i need someone to turn to.he will always be the 1st person that i can think of..always giving me his best advice.best encouragement....though sometimes he talk some kok but he's still my number one problem solver...someone to share anything and everything with.he will never force me to do things that i dun like..and the best thing is.. i can always be myself not someone else..
he will never add oxygen to fire..he's always the extinguisher fighting the fire and cool it with water..(: this is something that i really like about him...dearie may not be the most perfect guy in the world.but he's alrd very prefect to me...i may not be the most perfect girl with the best temper that he has ever met..but im really glad that i mean something to him..always loving me so much....

im really very thankful

i love u baby