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i suddenly miss shopping and just shopping..chilling out with my bestest girlfren.i suddenly miss doing lots of things that i used to do in the past..hmm...

mummy's down with chicken pox lately..and i felt so disgusted..sigh.so afraid that i might get it..and i might have scars after i recover): sobsob...so sad can):

i had a good day spend with baby ystd....playing games together and going out to buy food and groceries home ..the feeling is so very sweet.. look forwad for more time spend with you dear..sweet quality time that i always wanted!(: i thank god that you were always there most of the time when i needed someone to talk to,talk nonsense with...someone who always ask me lame jokes questions to make me laugh..someone who would really try his very best to just make me happy and see me smile.someone who's willing to tell me it okay dear its alright in his embrace and tell me that he loves me... i always look forward to see you all day long...to cherish and love u as much as i can(:

i love u baby...
and its so so so so so very much.

love you(:

shit

so shitty......sigh

L O V E

i love you-you accept me as who i am
i love you-you were sweet
i love you-you were caring
i love you-you were sensitive
i love you-you were patience
i love you-you were kind hearted
i love you-you were an encourager
i love you - you stood by me
i love you-your lame jokes make me smile
i love you -you try to be there for me all the time
i love you-you were understanding
i love you-you wiped off my tears all the time
i love you-you smile at me
i love you-you suprised me
i love you-you told me how much i mean to you
i love you-you love hugging me
i love you-you brighten up my day
i love you-you kissed me on my lips each time you see me
i love you-you told me how much you love me
i love you-you told me u love me till infinity
i love you -cause you said i love you dear
i love you- you showed me whats love is really all about.

me

sitting in the bus on the way to the airport...thinking of lots of things..my life,my family, elrond and friends.sometimes your family may not understand and may not be the one that comfort you after every failure or any unhappy moment you encounter..thats quite disappointing eh?? but i thank God for friends, friends thats willing to be there for you and hear your heart out.yeah, i thank God for pam.my mood was better after talking to her that night.been so long i last met up with her..and feels like we have never ending stuff to talk about.

actually i wasnt feeling very happy lately..over job and some personal stuff..there's so many things in my mind..and my heart..i know ure gg thru more stuff den me baby..but i wanna let u know that i care and i love u. things would be better..i really hope that you can be happier if not my mood will always be affected.and the both of us wont be happy.

i love you

140209

thank you dear for everything(:

happy valentine day dear..i look forward for more v.day to spend with you.

i love you

160209

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR(:

i feel kinda of sad and bad that we din manage to blow and cut a cake for your birthday..

i really wish we could...i really hope that next year would be better..

i love you baby..(:


LOVES

): so upset

sigh..why everything ended up liddat...it became something that im afraid of doing..my mood just went swinging up and down...faint..i duno since when i became liddat.the feeling suck and so shitty.sigh.GOD.. HELP!! im in a situation that i duno how to overcome by myself despite encouragement from friends and love ones i still couldnt do it..i feel so er.....!!!!!

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a person that is in the transition period always need their love ones to be around for them.

:D

loves deardear so much

east coast

(: happy happy..
every moment with you is so so so precious
i love u baby

真实 - 张惠妹

真实

你说的话在我心中生了根爱得很深所以心很疼记忆在我的心中翻滚是不是每一个人都像我一样笨只怕再问对彼此都太残忍我能感觉另外一个人我等等笑容换成泪痕爱在崩溃的时候比较真太多疑问知道答案又如何原来容忍不需要天份只要爱错一个人心痛比快乐更真实爱为何这样的讽刺我忘了这是第几次一见你就无法坚持孤独比拥抱更真实爱让人失去了理智会不会是我太自私拒绝更寂寞的日子放不开也看不见未来难道这种不完美才是爱情真实的样子

baby

i duno why i just feel like blogging about you.its 12 midnight now..i guess ure preparing to sail off..sigh this time is a long one..5 days): my mind was full of you when i was in class just now.i jus counldnt stop i duno why.

i feel real bless realising that baby actually loved me so much..and im really amazed by his acts of love towards me..i always though that love aint as sweet and loving as it shld be..always have the mindset that love is always about fights,quarrels,unhappiness,bitterness,tears and only 1 percent of love and romance..

ever since baby stepped into my life..he filled my life with laughter and joy..i started to realised that love isnt so painful after all..i really feel that im much much more happier now..feels like years that we have been together...going on hol trips,movies,dinners..family day together... is always so memorable..im always enjoying every moment with you beside me.without you i wont feel complete...this is the first time i say without this person i wont feel complete.you really mean alot to me.so continue to love me even more!ha ha..

i know ure gg thru alot now, i know i cant do much..i really wish i could...but please know that im always there by ur side,supporting you..and to be your pillar of strength wherever you are..never give up dear..your love ones is always backing you up...

your love has cover up all your imprefection...

i love you sweetheart(:

3feb09

im still in the process in getting use to the life im having now...in a weeks time i will be up in the air.i wonder how its gonna happen..feeling excited,yet nervous...so many things to look thru and remember..
dearie has been very busy too..with work ..duties after another..and many many more stuff..Feb is his busy month.. have lots of sailing out in the sea..meeting up is again so difficult..i duno when will i get use to the life im hving now.so difficult at times..when i miss him like hell.. in fact always,many times i will just cry..thruout my whole entire life i have never ever felt this way before..missing someone so much..thinking of him all day long..faint**** ha ha...i seriously cherish this sweetheart of mine..always giving me his fullest support be it mentally or physically..

dearie always try his very best to be there for me..giving his 101% in our relationship..waking up early just to send me to work.fetching me up and down to work and back home..not every guy can do this luh..and i really appreciate him for every single effort that he has given..i love you dear so much and i know u love me so so much too..
when i need someone to turn to.he will always be the 1st person that i can think of..always giving me his best advice.best encouragement....though sometimes he talk some kok but he's still my number one problem solver...someone to share anything and everything with.he will never force me to do things that i dun like..and the best thing is.. i can always be myself not someone else..
he will never add oxygen to fire..he's always the extinguisher fighting the fire and cool it with water..(: this is something that i really like about him...dearie may not be the most perfect guy in the world.but he's alrd very prefect to me...i may not be the most perfect girl with the best temper that he has ever met..but im really glad that i mean something to him..always loving me so much....

im really very thankful

i love u baby

(: lovelove

My new year resolution is you to be happier baby(:

i love you

CNY 09 day 1

dad and bro

with ah ma..

with mummy(:




and me taking pics never endingly...ha ha

its new year again..i start to feel bored eventually after so many years..ha ha

with love

pearl

24jan08

心動

sunday

it sunday again..zzzz got to work tml! baby's hving running nose and he is sleeping right now..i guess sleeping is his favourite hobby..but its a hobby that i can never pick up..i have lots to study..but things just couldnt get into my mind..stress..damn sian..hai..hven been to anywhere..always dk what to do and where to go..feels bored and sian at times..but again as long as he loves me and be with me..maybe thats enough already??...always wanna see people happy but..............
)':

不，完美

你常常說 我很完美沒人能取代 我給的一切我就以為 我努力更完美我們 就會永遠
完美並不美 我們多虛偽你讓我的好 變成一種罪完美並不美 當你愛了誰我的完美也只是 不完美
後來你說 我太完美值得更好的 陪在我身邊你不是我 你怎麼能體會你有 多麼珍貴
完美並不美 我們多虛偽你讓我的好 變成一種罪完美並不美 當你愛了誰我的完美也只是 不完美
完美並不美 我們多虛偽你讓我的好 變成一種罪完美並不美 當你愛了誰我的完美成了罪
完美並不美 我們多虛偽你讓我的好 變成一種罪完美並不美 當你愛了誰我的完美也只是 不完美

sigh

i feel bad if i dun understand..but again is not that im not understanding..i understand your feelings..i know ure sian.but im also sian too....alot of time when we're suppose to meet up..end up we cant..

anw.its sunday morning..i dk why i wake up so early...waking up haf disappointed..dk wad to do..its raining outside...so sian..and i have to go read up my notes for tml's test..stress!

i hope that the rest of today will get better..
i dun wanna be emo):

love pearl

batch 20

sigh

i feel so fucked up with myself..i dk why..

wad happens when i losen my bun up hair...hahas

pearlpearl(:

4/01/09

DIET PLAN STARTS NOW!WANA BE AS THIN AS POSSIBLE..

03012009

even since baby came back frm the super long sailing trip...feels like i cannot live without him..my emotions change so much luh..its super not healthy..like a child that cant live without their mum or dad for just one moment.but i cant always stick to him 24 /7 he has his own things to do also..i dont know how ..so sad.like someone that's so desperate for love..sobsob):
he is someone who's so sweet and caring always..he never fail to make me smile when things aint the way it should be..holding me in his arms telling me that he love me, never fails to melt my heart...looking into his eyes captivates my soul.....
after new year he might be leaving for another mission for 3 months.though i say im fine if he's going..but deep in my heart i feel so upset..like he come back only for awhile and he have to leave me again..gg back to the staring at the phone looking forward for him to call me and talk for only 10mins that kinds of life): i know by then i shld be flying alrd but sigh...i duno why i become so emotional..feels so shitty and gugu...

Deardear deardear deardear...............

painful

heartbroken): im so very sensitive about the topic of fat or skinny...i really dun wish to be so sensitive but i cant help it... why isit liddat? feels like im always so fat.no matter how much weight i lose...no matter how many meals i skip...im really very upset...no one will ever understand how i feel...sigh..

im fatty boom boom!

sentosa(: 31 dec08