03012009

even since baby came back frm the super long sailing trip...feels like i cannot live without him..my emotions change so much luh..its super not healthy..like a child that cant live without their mum or dad for just one moment.but i cant always stick to him 24 /7 he has his own things to do also..i dont know how ..so sad.like someone that's so desperate for love..sobsob):
he is someone who's so sweet and caring always..he never fail to make me smile when things aint the way it should be..holding me in his arms telling me that he love me, never fails to melt my heart...looking into his eyes captivates my soul.....
after new year he might be leaving for another mission for 3 months.though i say im fine if he's going..but deep in my heart i feel so upset..like he come back only for awhile and he have to leave me again..gg back to the staring at the phone looking forward for him to call me and talk for only 10mins that kinds of life): i know by then i shld be flying alrd but sigh...i duno why i become so emotional..feels so shitty and gugu...

Deardear deardear deardear...............