so sickening..

i seriously wish that i could just get married..and just forget about everything..but its seems like even getting married is a problem now...i hate it when out of sudden my mum just like throw me to a guy and think that in every way he could provide for me..assume this and assume that..its making me so damn frustrated luh..how to not be affected?not to be jealous?when she just dote on others more den her own kids.and asking me to survive on my own when i dun even have a job now..and dear jus say dun care luh dear..i know ..dun care..but its so i duno how to describe also..i only can wait till when that person is ready and able den i can have wad i want...

i seriously wanna live life to the max and be much more happier now den the past..but seems like its not working at all..humph..the only thing that im happy with is my bf has patience ..and a good temper to tolerate me.