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dear dairy

i think this is a very good place to vent my frustrations besides crying my heart out..
it became a habit for me to blog when im very sad or happy.ha ha

that 2 weeks of suffering was finally over..chicken pox really make me felt like im in hell..though its all over now..but there are still scars left behind...really need time to let them disappear..

well...been 9 months together...i guess u also dun rem..i felt that our honey moon period is really over..really! i think the honey mood period last for about 6months..i think is consider not bad alrd..ha ha..nevermind...hmm..now all the problems starts to appear..i duno wad he dun like about me..but im just upset that he cant give me his time,his company,his attention...we dun kiss like we always do when we were together at the beginning,no longer hug or kiss as much as we see each other in the pass...duno issit becos he dun love me as much as the past?or is his finances bothering him so much so that he really got so distracted..and forget about me sometimes?hmm..i really wish that we could really communicate more.hug more and kiss more to mantain this love run.i dk about you but i felt thatt way.i wanna love you more each day...like even more den the very first time i met you.i really understand your situation dear..i really hope that u could get out from what ure gg thru asap.i know its tiring..its mentally so stressful for u..when i saw u throwing temper,when u vent ur anger on ur things the very first time infront of me..i got very afraid..

afterall you know i love u alot dear..its love that keep me going on..pressing in..loving you even more..
i guess my birthday wish every year would be you getting out of debt till ur out of it.i really wish that you could be happier in everything that you do(:

well...went ikea,courts and giant last weekend..was quite a fun trip..but waited for the shuttle bus for damn bloody long!ZZZZZzzzzzz... but nevermind u were there for me..

never give up..im here for you

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i love my deardear..i love him so much..youre always busy but i know ure trying your best to give me what i always wanna.thank you dear.

thanks for always being so sweet and patience with me..ha ha..
well im also trying to not to fan you tat much liao..u know u know?(: (:
i love you luh deardear..you know? very very much(: ha ha
like soooooooooo much..(:

and and i wanna faster recover frm chicken poxy!!!!!!!!

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i think we're not doing well..why must i always feel so much for someone?and think so much for someone? i seriously feel very sian..i duno how luh...but again if i dun think for him..i may be selfish..not understanding..inconsiderate?? issit really too much?
sigh..i really duno how.when i get so into him den i realised that he's not able to spare me his time.to spend quality time with me......nt doing anything but jus talk about everything and anything under the sun.its like impossible....

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i dont normally envy other people's relationship.but time i really do..they were together for 4 years and still growing sweet,strong and steady.they were contented with what they had...and they enjoyed each other's company very much.pillar for each other.being accountable to each other..i think they're the only couple that i envy and look upon..that's really love luh..compared to others tt break up in 1-2 mnths time..and quarrel over silly things...

well,i seriously envy them and i really wish that mine can be like theirs.

forgiven...

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i couldnt sleep ):

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i was quite..but actually very upset..and disappointed...i really think that being honest to your partner is the most important thing too besides trust..i have been swallowing all the unhappiness the past weeks and i just felt that you are not speaking what u actaully think..im seriously very disappointed...i accidentally log into the wrong msn acc and this msn chat box pop out few weeks ago.it was the girl that i din like.she's his ex..she always call him up to ask for this and that..which im very annoyed..and he always tell me that i dun feel like talking to her just wanna put down the phone quick..but i dun see that its liddat..u guys talk on msn..im fine..but why must you tell her those not very nice things in your r/s?u din care about my feelings..im the stupid one that always talk good about you infront of my parents my bestest girlfriend..i tot that i wounldnt be hurt anymore..i really hate this kind of feelings..pls dun sweet talk about how good i am when u also use it on other girls ..i was totally wrong about you...

i waited for 4 bloody months for you....and.....sigh

please...tell me that you love me and you miss me when u really mean it..i seriously feel very disgusted..

memories that i will always treasure

"to have and to hold i love you till forever"

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mao tiun..deardear say humans are very mao tiun..haha..
i also think that im very mao tiun at times too..duno want or dun wan..hmm..sometimes in love you will also feel the same..when feel so in love with a partner you will want that person to stay with you for the rest of your life..but once you quarrel you will feel irritated you wont have the feeling to want to stay with that person at times..especially guys that dun wanna be responsible to what they have done....but some they took up the responsiblities but its no longer love..for wad?i think that they're not guys..

i believe that there were once u feel so eager to start a family with her to love her and treasure her with all your heart...to give her your very best..but that little someone came to earth too early by mistake..and now everything changes...

your attitude towards your wife changes ..your body language changes ..always venting your unhappiness and frustration on her..giving her the feeling that she's not so important anymore...to a young lady that love u so much and sacrifice for you..you treated her this way..you shout at her whenever youre unhappy..tell her off that becos she din study well ..she cant have a high pay job..it so demoralizing..so selfish of him to not think of the wife feelings.always think that your own parents are right..only listen to you own parents..telling your wife that she's not suppose to go back to her mum's place so often anymore even if he's not ard reason becos ure marry to me you shldnt go back so often...to my opinion i feel that why are you still staying with your parents?since you told your wife that ure marry to me..ure also marry to her wad..u yourself shouldnt cling on to your parents so much too.. so heartbroken when u hear of all these stories..getting married is not abt marrying only the wife or husband its always the two families..

in this broken down world there's so much unhappiness den happiness..sometimes its really hard to believe someone's promise to you...your marriage can be hell on earth if u marry the wrong person.

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i was bored till...haha

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