misses - number 6th day

Miss u super badly baby...
feeling so incomplete without you.u really mean everything to pearl.
miss u holding my hands and your hugs.always filled with warmth and love. far away in distance and time but yet you have never stop showing your care and concerns thru your emails and phone calls...sweetest darling i love u(:

smoochsmooch(:

Pearl

baby love :)

smooch(:

feeling so tired after a day at work..dazing all the way during the trip back home..station after station passed...she's still in her dream world dreaming of her prince charming dearie at the other side of the earth.suddenly her phone vibrate..she took out and see..unknown number..wonder who will call her at this time..she picked up..then the person said hello dear..OO!! pearl's so happy its her long await call frm her darling(: so so so HAPPY!MISS U DEAR!
chatted for awhile then he got to hang up alrd.due to limit of time.sigh.nvm shall wait for him to call me again!u mean alot to me baby(:pls takecare..i love u.

love u sweetest dear(:
smooch

(:

YIPPIE!!dear replied pearl's email!so happy!really happy!love u love u sweetest boy(:
dearest darling.smoochsmooch!


(:loves

31082008

i miss u baby..so badly

我舍不得

day before he leave

wanna be in your arms forever.

i love u baby,always always.

29082008,friday.before baby leaves.took leave to company him the whole day.did lots of stuff together with him..went to collect rental fee from dear's tender,settle his credit card stuff in town,cut his hair then night time to his grandma place for dinner(:yumyum!after that went to get cable for his dvd player...den to his 3rd aunt place...blahblahblah....

8pm went pasar malam to walk walk...after that went to watch ke tai..reach home at about 10pm,help dear to pack his bag...so sad..sigh..watch the CD that he gave while he went to shower..dear so sweet captured all our love memories in it..tears just kept falling and falling down her cheeks...

how she wish that he can just stay by her side and don ever leave her...

The day that baby is sailing off to iraq has finally arrived.woke up at 6am get dress den dear drive down to changi base..lots of people..went to onboard rss resolution the ship that's gonna company him for the next 4 months.took some pictures..bt its with him..ceremony begins at ard 9am follow by the reception..after the ceremony dear say he wasnt feeling well..sigh,worried!dear looked so sad..feeling superduper she bu de.deardear cry..sobsob.pearl couldnt take it anymore tears kept falling the moment he gave her a last hug before he sail off..

At the deck of the ship waving goodbye to her..flying a kiss for above...make her feel even more she bu de.heart so pain.never felt this way before.hope that ure feeling much better now.

i love u dear

i know you love me and i love you too.thank you for everything sweetheart.

come back quick

im here waiting ..waiting for you.

我爱你

tot that relationship is just between two person..but i duno why people jus like to interfer.people just like to anyhow asumed things the way they wanna..saying all kinds of things about you.saying that u have change into another person that they dun even know.why are u like this and like that.u become lazy to explain.the thing is do i have a choice?someone just make a decision to let go of everything not thinking for the other party and what he had done to that person.jus let go and expect things to fall in place the way he wanna..now she jus wanna to take back some stuff that belongs to her..its so hard.and even if she take it back..some people will just think that she's a bad person she's evil..wanna hurt others feelings..thinking that she's only concern about all her feelings and hurts.but if she dun be selfish and think for herself now who will?everything in this world is always not fair..bad things always happen to good people and the bad people will always get the good things and the world will just stand by them.so shitty!

act as if they are so poorthing and wanna people to pity them.she seriously hate this person and she wouldnt wan to have anything to do with him anymore.because this person had been talking cock...saying things to make people feel that he's a great person but actually a person that speak so loud in his words but doing nth in his action.talking so big..but doing shitty things..

he say that he's hurt because she have change so much..u dun have to be feeling sad or hurt luh.u dun worth someone like her.u dun worth the love that she have given all this while.ure a love sucker but not a giver.the hurts that u hv placed in her life is enough for her to rem for the rest of her life.so stop thinking that he have treated her very well all this while its all rubbish!


pearl is still the same old pearl that loves to love people that still care enough for people who is worth her care and concerns..asshole pls get lost.
learned a good lesson that not everyone that goes to church is purify and ready to give.
she's not gonna care anymore..its her life...her own happiness.


pearl

(:loves

genting trip(:our 3D2N trip started at ard 5am in the morning...baby is so great able to drive nearly 4 hours into genting(:pearl's is not bad too!company him all the way till we reach our destination(:
its always so great to spend time with your love ones..the feeling is always so good(:
gonna travel more often together ya(:


love u baby(:

wasn't feeling well ystd and mummy din cook my dinner cos i din inform her...and so baby came down to look for me with porridge in his hands.despite of feeling tired and all he came all the way down to my place just to make sure that she have something to eat for dinner.feeling so touched by his actions,no one had ever done that (: sobsob.

feeling unwell yet still wanna travel with him to get stuff that he needed for his projects.hehe.feels great when he's by pearl's side.bought his favourite liang cha for her.but it tasted very much different from the normal ones..its so bitter!!!!..the most bitter liang cha that i have ever tasted.went back home to add honey to finish it..taste so much better then before....

thanks baby for being there.dun like the feeling of counting down to ur dear ones to leave u..but still u have no choice.....exactly 10 more days......sigh

bad day

sobsob....

happy day

Pearl's super excited today.cos baby came to fetch her to work and had breakfast with her..making the effort to wake up so early in the morning despite expensive ERPS he still came all the way to fetch her to work!pearl know that u din sleep well lastnite due to some stuff...and so on..feels heart pain when she don see a smile on his pretty face.sigh..
reached office at about 8, went down for breakfast den went to gurdian to buy distilled water with him for his project..walked back to office,while waiting for the stationery shop to open baby went to get fruits(:blablablah...after seeing baby's not so many smile face..pearl decided to pass him the book that she made for him to company him while he is in iraq..earlier.. to make him happy cos she cant stand seeing him upset.feels terrible in the inside of her..
glad that he feels much better after looking at the book..thanks for being such a sweet boy sweetheart.u deserve the things that u have.and i'll never stop showering love on u.smooch(:whatever it may be..heartbreaking moments or failure,good or bad...i wanna be there..and be that someone who is different from anyone else.

sometimes is jus a little step more to make someone's day better and happier.

more suprises to come(:

I love u baby.

I was so in love with you
There was nothing I could do
Wouldn't give me the time of day
Now you wanna be with me
You say you wanna be with me
You said I was the best
Gave your love out the rest
There was nothing I could say
It's going good for me
You say you wanna be with me
Now
Yeah you're telling me that
I am were it's at
But I ain't having none of that....
Because I told you, you would look to regret it,
and now I don't wanna make you feel bad,
But when it comes to me just forget it,
I'll be the best you never had,
You put me through so many emotions,
Now baby it's your turn for that,
cause in your empty heart I left a mark,
The best you never had.
No, No, No
You saw me as a friend,
Baby I don't want revenge,
But if you must know the truth,
What you didn't see in me
Reflects what you will never be now,
when you're telling me I was always the one,
I feel your desperation.
Back rubs, good love, my stuff
That's what you missed out on
My touch show much we could have
You miss,
My kiss,
My lips,
The love I had for you
Our song, so long
Well I will always be the best you never had

The best you never had

insecure..afraid of being hurt once more....sigh.why?i seriously hate this feeling.........


Feeling super bored now..gonna knock off soon to meet up with ganbee..haha
time files and now is alrd mid of august...baby's gonna leave to iraq..Pearl is so so so so sad.. not being able to see him for 3 months..gonna be so far apart from each other for 114 days.. not sure how am i gonna survive thru this 3 months, without him ard me.bt i know i can.(:
im jus gonna wait till the day that i can finally be back in his arms again..
he was one of them whom was there when pearl was at the lowest point of her life. lost and duno what to do.tho he was not physically ard her bt he was mentally there for her. making her smile and make things happen for her..words of thankfulness that she cant express. really thank god for him din know that we can come so far....bt now ure leaving..
pearl's gonna be superduper sad): perharps..its jus our fate to be separated..the test of our love(:
bt pearl know that the love we share its gonna be so strong.unbreakable in distance(:
thinking of you whenever she can jus simply put a silly smile on her face(:
pearl jus simply love euuu!so special and unique..no matter where u are wad ure doing.ure always on her mind..



ure her sweetest addiction.someone who is so different.

with lots of love(:
pearl
6pm thinking of u still

sometimes pearl wish tt she can be selfish and just want the person tt she loves the most to stick with her whenever they can.which sounds impossible and she know that she cant be so selfish.....

Anw, phuket was fun..spending time with your love ones is always so great(: wish that there will be more trips coming(:

when out with pammy darling ystd...we met up at orchard..went dinner den to kinokuniya to shop for books cos she wanted to use up her voucher..this silly girl wanted to buy the whole bookstore..she's a bookworm she loves reading...after that we went to cotton on..our favourite(: we bought one cardigan each and she got herself a grey scarf.. this sweet girl got me a dress too(:love u babe(:

after shopping we realised that it was alrd 9+..all the shops are alrd closing so went to starbucks to chill out..
was a super crazy outing together..always had fun with her..talking shitty stuff, being stupid...after all just being ourselves..enjoying each other company..(: 10+ raining heavily...elrond sweet came to pick us up..pammy was so excited abt elrond(:haha..wanting to get to know him...and so they started talking on the way back..'serious talk'haha...guess they had fun talking(:

finally reached home...goodbye babe(:...
was so happy to see elrond sweet ystd....still couldnt stop laughing abt ystd's conversation with pammy..was so funny..how i wish that ure my sister..(: anw..i guess if ure my sis den i think we wont have tt kind of closeness like now..


memories keep in pearl's heart always
loves
11am

Cant help but to be emotional..sigh..feeling empty and afraid duno for what also..




):
pearl

210709

gosh!panda eyes!sigh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.......TO ME(:

indeed a special day of mine.

thanks for making my day

memories will always be kept in my heart(:

unforgettable(:

我只想做你的公主
拥有那平凡的幸福
华丽的珍珠
不如眼底的专注
对我深深呵护
我想我是你的公主
终结这多年的追逐
当你抱着我
地球也暂停脚步
我霎那间清楚你是我的幸福


pearl loves you
1000am
16July08...counting down..so exciting(:

Every time anywhere ur'e always on her mind.
loveliest,sweetest ur'e always number one(:
ready to be there in every need in her life.
one and only that's so close to her heart.
never.. ever will she ever let u go..
daring to dream is what she admire.

you're the sunshine of her life..always will be(:


pearlpearl(:loves
1030am

Dearest pam li

pictures taken very long ago


wednesday!!!Pearl finally met up with her long lost girlfriend..she mia for a few months..pearl had been wondering wad happen to her..so sad..used to spend time together..share everything and anything under the sun...we both think alike and do thing almost the same...Pearl seriously miss this girl luh..and so finally during her bd pearl send her a sms wishing her happy bd ....din expect a reply bt to her suprise pamela li replied..pearl was so happy(: pam told pearl that she was actually waiting for her to wish her happy bd..and i did..she was very very happy(:

so we met up..we have not been contacting each other for a few months..yet pearl still feel the closeness between each other..we started sharing what happen within this few months,pearl realised so much have happen be it good or bad..

Pearl seriously thank God for this girl in her life..that brings her joy and laughter...she might not be always there..bt pearl know that she's a really sweet gf that she can trust..

Pamela li dont be dishearted..whatever that ure gng thru now..its not gonna last for long..no matter what happen weixian is with you..

BIGHUG...

I LOVE U BABE(:

pearl...thurs ,800pm

(:

us at miss clarity(:

karen shanshan(:(:(:

GANBEE!!!haha

hven been spending time with them lately):

glad that we finally unite(:

love u girls much much(:

LOVES

pearl

lalalala

looking back..have been 2 months since we part...u left a great impact in her life..Pearl will never forget that day..
she's gonna pick herself up again..and move on in life..her life without u wont be that bad too....*no more rubbish talking again from u*bt she cant promise that she wont have any hatred or bitter feelings towards u...u can never understand that kind of feelings....Pearl hope that u can pick yourself up from where u fell..wishes u all the best..

some people in the office just dunno when to talk more and when to just shut up.. its so irritating..living ard with this kind of people..sometimes you just feel like slapping that person..but u cant.....sigh

man..missing her gfs soo sooOO much..haven been spending much time with them..feel so bad,but
pearl still love all of u (:


loves pearl
11am

Happy HAPPY!!!

Feeling happy,Pearl enjoyed begin herself after going thru so much in her life...to jus think for herself more,to do what she loves without restrictions....feeling so so content..

Saturday was company's D&D, Pearl really enjoyed that day..the fun,laughter made her realised that without that person in her life she actually could be happier(:

thank you knight for begin there (:u made her day!the sweetest guy that pearl have ever met so far..so gentlemanly,sincere&cheerful...knowing how to express himself the right way,at the right time... always never fail to made her smile(: every time when he looked into her eyes its always with a smile......that smile brightens up her day..Pearl's really grateful to have this friend in her life,u showed her that there's still hope....

love

Pearl

240608 1140am

(:love

Gonna flush away all the unhappy memories that was left behind..Pearl wanna be happy(:

I LOVE MYSELF..

160608

1130pm

if only i can turn back time.i would want to go back to the very first time i met you.And also back to those moment that i felt so loved by you(:


iloveyoustill.

pearl
100608
6.00pm

why?

Pearl feels empty...that hollow feeling just doesn't seem to go away

当时怎么爱上你的
朋友说的我微笑听着
爱情的剧本原来就没规则
现在变不重要了
结局已揭晓了
后来当朋友
你我也只是顺手
殉难着好演员的我
说不遗憾是骗人的
那些爱与不爱
还在颤栗着
我明白只是谁来导演呢
勇敢是你教的
眼泪是我的快乐都假的
我想找个答案
如果爱被出卖
到最后非卖品有什么剩下
太好强又太傻
受了伤当残币留下
保重的坚强
笑得那么自然
悲伤也放进橱窗
爱没有答
再倔强再不分
到最后被看穿
一个人逞强
说不恨是骗人
我不再隐瞒爱的伤痕
不想转过身不必回头地承认
非卖品是爱最美的灵魂

pearl
080608
100pm

huh?

what if someone that u know all along..fell in love with you without you knowing?.........
pearl got a shock this week receiving a gift frm this person that she knew for a few years..she always treated that person like her brother..and he actually told her that he likes her....??????Pearl's like huh?like u know what are u talking about?kind of impossible...luh..im sorry.
hmm..this week is kinda of tiring..work and more work!feel so tired!sat..finally no work!went for family gathering..den movie after that..watched sex and the city with family..its a nice show(:
went home after that..tired again!....its sunday tml..and here goes Pearl's weekend..
half a year is almost gone..and what have u been doing Pearl?.............
feels like Pearl is still dreaming in her fairytale land...always thoughtthat everything will end happily ever after??




love pearl
070608
11.30pm

I really wanna hear you say

that you know just how it feels

To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone,

I'm still holding on somehow

Wishing

I could change the way

the world goes round....

.......................

pearl

6.00pm

050608

at last some happy moments(:

"mummy love her lots.."



"mummy i know ure still the best..
i love you.."



super model?

"hello sweetheart"

BOO!!sweet(:




pearl
misses
040608
10pm

"To that someone.if in anyway i have hurt you.im sorry."



lovepearl
030608
10.00am

pearlhatesbeginheartbroken....
010608
1.30pm