love

i realised that a guy can never understand a girl feeling no matter how close they're..not that they're not understanding but their thinking were made to be liddat..their usual de ne ne reaction when u tell them how you feel..hahas...pam i guess you know wad im trying to say.hahas..but sometimes i see really sweet guys making changes for their love ones.i believe its always love that make someone willing to change..changes take time and it may just take years for a person to pick up something that he or she has never practice before..its not very healthy to keep on thinking negative thots about that person..just give each other grace..and it will really help..i have no idea why am i talking so much cock today..i guess im really bored..but somehow i can really understand the feeling of changes..cos i came across this situation where this damn bloody idiot asshole bastard f***er guy that want me to change for him in like just one day?and want me to do everything in his way.WHAT THE HELL.. im not a robort..go marry a robort if you like to treat your love one like a servant or a slave...go and die okay..i have made a super duper wrong decision to be with you for damn bloody long years..and that kind of f***ing feeling is still in my mind..i really dun understand at the point when everything its gone i still wan your heart back..cry so much becos of you i really duno how to forgive you.i really duno how.i really regret big time...and just let you treat me like a piece of shit.the wound hasnt heal abit yet until today..i alway feel like it just happen ystd..most terrible nightmare..

no one will ever understand my feelings.
i really hope that 09 would be a better year...and i really hope that you will bring me happiness.