heartbreaks

oh my God she's a bitch a witch a devil..someone evil..i really hate her..why must i have a sister liddat..i can hardly talk to her..can say never..cos she doesnt reply..only know how to rebel aganist her own family memebers..i always try to talk to her but it always fail..im so very upset.everytime end up quarrelling..shouting..my heartaches so much...most of my friends have a sister to share their problems with..to do everything together..standing up for each other..but she's not willing... she rather hang out with her friends out there till late nights..do stupid things with them.she always blame us for the bad.always never come to know her own mistake..only know how to use people..

since young she dun have a close r/s with us..she was very rebellious..wanna do things in her own way.never wanna listen to us.always creating trouble in school and i have to clear up the mess for her.always never fail to see teacher or parents knocking at my classroom door to look for me.just because of her..and many parents often blame me for not being a good sister.never teach her well...in my heart..i really feel like telling them isit my prob that she's behaving liddat?i din teach her to be liddat.none of my business okay. i always end up in tears.im so young what can i do people often JUST PUT those blames on me.sigh

she often leave hm to stay at her friends place..and my parents have to go all over to look for her..sometimes if really need they got to make a police report..

her friends are never trustworthy.most of the time i can see lots of her friends walking away when she needed them..backstabbing her.. laughing at her.i really duno what SHIT her friends has given her that make her feels friends are always better den a sister at home..or her own family.

no one has ever praised me infront of her.they were so afraid of her.they'll often say that she's so pretty..and just comment rubbish comments on me..to make her happy..if they say something wrong..she would do nasty things to them..i was so hard broken..even though its not real.even relatives keep saying that im very fat during my younger days.family outings.cny..they will always have bad comments on me.without knowing that they are actually breaking my heart.always say that she's better den me.in terms of looks cos she's very small size at that time .during our younger days when we quarrel at home she will make nasty remarks like..fat pig.fat pig.so fat go and die.sometimes even do some unglam stuff.. she dun even respect me.

with this low self-esteem of mine..lost 30kgs during my 1month sch hols on my own.gave her a shock.

I guess god is good to me..she reap what she sow..when she was 14..her weight increase so much..really so much...but i have never mock at her.never say nasty comments at her.despite what she did to me in the pass.i always wanna give her the best..tell her whats the best..bt she always turn me down.people always mock at her but i always try to be there for her ..end up im the one who kena everything from her..she never understood my heart as a sister.and now out of sudden she's saying that so what ure prettier den me dress nicer den me..she torn my precious book and pushed me aside like some mad women...saying that i looked down on her..and blah blah blah...jus becos i ask her why is she wearing my top..and it looks very tight..she left the hse.. shouted across the corridor SHUT UP v.v loudly..i was so upset.

you din ask me what happen when was upset and i told u that i quarrel with my sis.u din ask a thing.

now even if my parents scold her she also wont give a damn.

sometimes in life there's not a need to be a nice person.afterall people wont understand. i really hate her.