Pearl's memories

love at 25 weeks

2010-05-11T16:40:00.002+08:00

25 weeks baby kaylee(:

im gonna say goodbye to my second trimester... just another week more to welcome my final trimester.....i'm so looking forward for her arrival....

9 april

2010-04-09T20:20:00.002+08:00

i think daddy chen is abit too much recently...he rather company his game all day long instead of companying me..hai..so sian..

7 april

2010-04-07T12:22:00.003+08:00

went for detail scan ystd..bb kaylee was quite active she kept moving and turning...sometimes refused to get into the right position. but after turning left and right she finally get into the right position. or else i got to go out for a walk and before we can continue the scan...

im so bored now..everyday also tired..zzzzz..plus the damn weather is so damn hot..im drinking the birdnest that daddy chen got for me(: yummy... kaylee's cot came this morning...gonna fix it when my due date is nearer...

love at 20weeks(:

2010-04-05T22:23:00.002+08:00

baby kaylee say hi mummy daddy (:

30th march

2010-03-30T13:31:00.002+08:00

just another week away to 20 weeks...baby kaylee has been kicking more nowdays especially when im lying on the softa or bed....everytime when i feel her kicks it never fail to put a smile on my face. i cant wait for aug to come so that i can finally see her face to face. im also looking forward to my detail scan nx tues(: daddy chen cannt make it so mummy will go down to TMC with me...fox was having big sales i saw some really nice ones..i cant help it!!!...but its really damn cheap..those clothings i bought is only 9 dol of less per piece but in retail its 30 over dols... so i think its damn worth it.

well frm the moment i discovered my pregnancy til my 5th month i have learn alot of things, how tough it is being pregnant..the toughest 3months ..the changes in my body till i almost got scared about having a second one...parents nag for our own good but not overly naggy.my mum is still consider as normal..haha...parents worrying over child education..are they able to cope ant?mentally and financially perpared for the child and her future. being a parent isnt that easy.

from going out till late nights with friends to sleeping early and resting at home all day long...tts boring...frm drinking and eating whatever i want to consider whether it will harm my bb ant.frm wearing body hugging clothings to loose clothings...from a big B to a big C cup...frm waist of 28 till 36....my weight i have gain i think 4 kgs alrd..faint..and i realised that i start to get lazy dolling up alrd!!! that cannt be the case...and soon i will be wearing nursing brasssss instead of cotton bra..

i guess everything's worth it to see my little kaylee grow up strong , healthy , intelligent and super adorable(:

to my dearest dear: i heart you(:

2010-03-08T18:58:00.004+08:00

Two is better than one(:

i remember what you wore on our first day,

you came into my life and i thought hey

you know this could be something

cos everything you do and words you say

you know that it all takes my breath away

and now im left with nothing

so maybe it's true, that i cant live without you

and maybe two is better than one

but there's so much time, to figure out the rest in my life

and you've already got me coming undone

and im thinking two, is better then one

i remember every look upon your face

the way you roll your eyes the way you taste

you make it hard for breathing

cos when i close my eyes and drift away

i think of you and everything's okay

and finally now, believing

hai..

2010-03-08T13:27:00.002+08:00

headaches headaches and more headaches....hai..i wanna faint liao seriously..and sometimes feel like i have fainting spells...i really realised that being pregnant is so tough eh....oh well..but its all worth it...(: i hope that i can get to know my baby's gender soon..so that when getting baby's stuff wouldnt be so tough....

):

2010-02-23T19:21:00.002+08:00

seriously feeling very terrible the whole day today! having a damn jialat headche...and i suddenly feel dizzy when i get up frm bed or sofa...when to bathe ard 5 i vomit my breakfast out while bathing...ooo...so damn er xin.but feel much better after vomitting....sigh...i still hate to eat alot of things..but im good at tibits..lol

frustrations

2010-02-23T12:27:00.003+08:00

drilling and drilling non stop since ystd morning and they continue drilling today...omg..i cannt stand it anymore...and another day tml!!! becos of all the renovation at 12th storey i dun get to slp !!! arghhhhh......... im having headache now! im feeling so tired! hope they finish everything quick!and return me my peace!

well, i wonder hows my sweetheart doing in my tummy...i wanna do another scan during march to know bb's gender..

dear is as busy as ever....wont be seeing him for the nx five days ...hai....realised tt he often cannot be with me nowadays. when i need him the most now. but, sigh..wadever...

???

2010-02-18T22:40:00.001+08:00

are you kaylee or darius....

mummy so wanna know!!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CNY

2010-02-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE AND MY LITTLE SWEETHEART INSIDE MY TUMMY(:

MUMMY LOVE YOU.

BORING V.DAY

evil

2010-02-10T19:35:00.002+08:00

many things happen..and im left speechless...i learn to not judge someone by their fake cover. things may turn out scary, or maybe er xin when you know who that person really is........

2dec09

2009-12-02T19:49:00.003+08:00

im so bored.......school suck..

finally 2009 is coming to an end! time really pass damn fast...and im married for 5 months alrd...zzzzzzz

well, Christmas is getting nearer....this year christmas is so not planned...hmm..so sian.i think xmas eve is stay at home n company his mum..zz..i just duno why me n his mum just cant click at all...i din know tt staying with mil is tt difficult. if i knew it earlier den i wont even marry him alrd..cos i dun wanna him to be stuck in the middle like sandwhich...duno what to do. he upset i also upset den no one is happy. i really hate this phrase jia ji suay ji jia go suay go...duno who the hell invented this kinda of stupid phrase...zzzz i really feel tt once married parents shld let go and let this own child manage their own life..not everything also wanna bother..and i really feel that we shld stay ourself instead of staying with in laws..if really have to stay with in laws if they are nice..den nevermind.not nice u die..and u will curse n swear for the rest of ur life...okay i know i sound very negative.. but im really quite upset about things now.

my xmas wish this year would be having a child of my own another little one that is precious to me.im really hoping for one...
a hol nx year..haha...okay i know im quite greedy...ha ha....

ita a boring sunday...

2009-11-01T21:18:00.001+08:00

how nice if he's here by my side.......

another 10days without hearing from you...piss........

sigh

2009-10-24T00:58:00.004+08:00

was a damn tiring day today. when back panjang after lesson to move my furniture to my master bedroom and cleaning up.. its was really tough...kayse came to help..if not i think the three of us can die moving the heavy furniture liao. after that went steamboat at bugis. den now im home again..exhausted..jus finish bathing..hair damn wet....and i have nth better to do but blog.whenever im unhappy, feeling down i would jus wanna blog. i realised that my eyebags are getting worst OMG!...like since when? den i realised that i haven been sleeping well the pass nights.

my dearest

2009-10-22T19:45:00.002+08:00

he finally call me the day before.. for less then 5 mins he hang the call.cos its 3 dol plus per min...

tues - another day without you....

2009-10-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

sigh..no news of him..haven been hearing from him.

had business statistic class test today it totally suck.

waiting for someone u love is really tough

2009-10-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

baby im so bored...

its friday

2009-10-16T22:34:00.003+08:00

sigh..im really miss him loadsssss i wonder does he really miss me as much as i do..? or even more or abit lesser.....i really feel quite upset...i just wanna shout it all out i know that wouldnt really ease the pain of separation.. but how? i also cant do anything much...i feel that im jus a human being that dont have the energy and power to move...i feel so lazy..so mood swing..as the days goes by....without hearing from him at all...i wanna find things to do, go out and have fun and jus forget about him for one moment but i cant stop my mind from thinking about him for any moment of time..i have projects to do and also to revise for the coming test..but sigh..i jus felt that im quite useless.....like dont have my baby dont have his love cannot work LOL..i jus miss his embrace...and when he look at me and tell me that he loves me...aww..like so sweet right..oh well,i think im crazy alrd..miss him too much miss until my brain demage alrd..humph....

i feel real bad today..i dont know why i will say such things but i guess im jus missing him too much till i was like angry?with him?ha ha...i know im very funny...i text him saying that i dun wan you alrd..faint...i dk how will he react when he see that msg ...sigh......so bad of me): im really sorry..

updates

2009-10-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

been so long i last blog...well pass two months was very busy...wedding and stuff that i don wish to metion anymore.

well, baby went Aus alrd...duration six weeks?sigh...kinda of bored actually...no reception.. counldnt contact at all..i wonder when then im able to hear from him again or at least a mail or something..thou this is a shorter trip but im real sian..cos i din manage to hear from him for quite a munber of days alrd..he left some responsibility with me before he left..there's some stuff that i need to ask him...hdb is coming out with another BTO tomorrow i dont wish to miss out this chance...but i cant contact him.....cant discuss with him..sian...and i really think that people are very selfish at times..they wont rem the good things that u did for them.being there when they're feeling lonely..but now when its your turn they dun really give a damn..dun bother to even ask much.husband ard den always stick to husband forget abt anyone else...often take the little one as excuse.having a kid doesnt mean that its the end lor.. doesnt mean that everything also cannot do..things would be much easier if u dont think until its so damn hard to do....i feel so damn cheated by you..im not gg to be so nice anymore.

baby i miss you..come back quick pls....

2009-08-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

i may not know it but these are the moments that i am going to remember the most. just gonna keep going..and i got to be strong just keep pushing on...

we love you baby, but you chose to leave us. we have got no choice but to accept it and force ourselves to move on. its nobody's fault. maybe we just dont have the fate to see each other.tho is just 3months but you meant alot to us.

we have always loved you since the day that we found out about you....

(:

2009-08-02T21:25:00.007+08:00

im offically married to mr chen wuda..with so many blessings from everyone...thank you so much(: you're always the sweetest dear..and i love you so much..thanks for making everything come true for me.it was a tiring yet memorable night last night...and i will always rem it for life..for watever things that you did for me.im loooking foward to more in our marriage...and our little gift that have yet to come into this world(:

sigh

2009-07-28T23:02:00.002+08:00

im so afraid of facing reality.really. OBS.sigh....come to think about it.i feel so afraid.i cant bear to be seperated from you for another 4 months again.but yet i still have to let you go.....its so painful..that feeling is terrible.really...i really hate it.but i cant avoid it...God can you pls make me feel less? so that i wont feel so much pain inside of me?

my 20th bd

2009-07-22T11:51:00.004+08:00

thanks dear..love you(:

photos without editing

2009-07-14T22:51:00.004+08:00

haha...here's one of the 33 pics that we have chosen..the rest you will get to see on the actual day(:

2009-07-05T13:16:00.002+08:00

july...the month of exams and my 20th birthday..supposed to be a happy one but sigh..i have no mood for it already i totally dont know what to do or face that problem without anyone's support i dont wanna be a murderer seriously.

2009-06-28T22:43:00.003+08:00

been very busy with stupid projects this few weeks.like sian..and the lecturer dont even make herself clear in whatever things she explain..zzz..dun wanna talk abt it anymore..tml's my project submission date.hope i get good grades..hahha

anw, went town with mum and the kids on friday.went shopping around..andwe saw these pretty flower girl dress for the 2 girls(: pretty right..ha ha..but its abit too early to get it..so shall wait till nx year den go get it..

went to watch transformer with baby jus now..nice show..(:

gtg..got school tml..zzz..sian..wanna graduate quick!!

anniversary cum proposal

2009-06-17T12:57:00.006+08:00

ystd was our anniversary..so baby and i went to sizzler to eat and celebrate..and its my first time eating steaks in a restaurant...hha..very gugu right...baby also bought me flowers..after that we went to the fountain of wealth to watch the laser show......and i din expect that he will actually propose there..i was super suprised..when the laser form a line of words saying "pearlyn will you please marry me?"..i was so touch..so so touch..tears flow down my cheeks...OMG...i really cant believe it...no one has ever do so much things for me in my 20 years......i love you dear..thank you so much...

2009-06-13T22:40:00.002+08:00

i love you baby...

love love with lots of love..

2009-06-07T22:18:00.017+08:00

with lots of love

pearl

2009-06-04T23:56:00.002+08:00

ooo.. time flies..im gg back to school nx week..feeling excited i wonder how will it be like..ha ha..this yr is really fast its alrd june..half the year gone liao..and its also our one yr anniversary.....

when its like next week and next week but it din come..baby loves to sleep and his sleeping now..sigh..i have always wanted to go to marina barrage..go for pinic and stuff but its not happening..kinda of sianthats why i can blog now..i have nth to do but i dun wanna slp my weekends away lor its damn boring....well...baby say that he have a good news for us..and the good news is there's flat available in sk...near my parents place...end up see wrong..becos of the t&c we cannot apply..zzzzzzz): happy news become sad news...dear also told me that his ship will not be going for the 4 months deployment nx year so he will have to go with another ship...and becos of that he cannot promote nx yr ): so sad lor..he have to wait till 2011 or even later to get his staff sergent rank...sian...when he talk abt the 4 months trip hor..it reminds me of last year..when we were jus together for a few months and he have to leave me for the 4 months trip..feeling so sad..the flash back of him telling me that he gtg..waving goodbye to me frm far...tears began to flow down my cheeks..that painful feeling i will never forget..how i wish that he dun have to go..and we will jus have enough money to get married....

even typing all this make my tear so much liao..i cant imagine that day...
i guess it will be even worst then the previous one cos feelings have gone deeper..

pearl

2009-06-02T00:28:00.002+08:00

i finally got my new netbook frm dear..can use internet at home liao after so long....ha ha..well life is still the same for me..zzz..soon sch gonna start liao..and i got to start all over again to study!..also duno how..but also must know how..ha ha..well was on the way back home frm dearie's place..i enjoyed every moment spend with him..he's always very sweet luh..wanna give me his very best..but sometimes i get overly naughty..throw temper here and here..i know..i can be much better luh..and i will start to control my bad temper..ha ha..but it makes me feel very xin fu to have him..cos he's someone thats so close to my heart..and i can never afford to lose him..he might not be the most prefect man on earth..but i love very much...

to maintain a long term love relationship isnt easy luh..got to give and take...if u really love that person i believe there's always a way.

2009-05-20T22:23:00.001+08:00

moody...feeling so suckie

2009-05-20T20:22:00.002+08:00

I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

pearl

15 may 09

2009-05-15T19:25:00.003+08:00

well..life is still the same for me..jus came back frm downtown east chalet last weekend..was fun(:
anw....lappy down desktop down everything down...zzzz...thats one of the reason why i stop blogging...im having a tough time forgetting the pass..feels like whatever he is doing now i... still feel like knowing..sigh..i really wish that i could really forget this bastard..but its like so damn hard..i know i let u down dear..bringing this kind of unpleasant memories into ours..i know its not fair to you..but im really trying to forget..and letting it go...one thing for sure is that i really love you..im glad that i found you..someone thats full of patient towards me..i know sometimes im abit hard to deal with...im sorry..sometimes is also because of my parents that why i always seem like i have no patient towards you....

i got very f***ed up by my sis today..she's a bitch luh thats what i can say.....my mum keep calling my sis a fat pig..becos she gain alot of weight..she was super duper mad..so she wrote a note and said stop calling me a fat pig..unless ure not my mum.stop insulting me and stuff liddat....i told my mum abt it and she said she's really a pig wad thats the fact..sigh..means she's gonna continue calling her that..this morning..while she was preparing to go out my mum frm the kitchen called her fat pig again..she got so pissed up till she open the door again and shouted back into my face and said stop calling me fat pig..i got very mad cos i never ever call anyone fat pig in my whole life..cos i know how it feels..so i went to open the door and ask her whats her prob and stuff and she jus scream back twice at me..i got really pissed..damned it..my prob ah?fucking bitch..

feels like i owe everyone luh..when the hell am i gonna be happy???????

pearl

2009-04-24T00:12:00.005+08:00

my god rec the news that the F1 show has been cancelled!! damn upset and its so last min..no work means no money...sian..whatever i have plan before hand that i wanna do seems like sigh..it wont happen..never felt so drained up before..sigh..really damn sad luh..
anw,went to find baby jus nw..god i miss him so much!! i jus enjoy spending time with you..ure like almost my everything..i love u so much..

(:

2009-04-22T19:44:00.001+08:00

can someone make me happy for once?

2009-04-22T18:55:00.006+08:00

had a hard timee sleeping last night..sneezing and sneezing duno how many pieces of tissue paper i used up...but duno y this morning jiu recover liao..thank god

went to collect my retainers today...and the dentist told me that i got to wear for another 2 year..zzzzz...went out with sy today..meet her at sengkang den went to look for present for her bf..find find find cannot find den end up she bought a pair of couple rings..its damn cheap luh..20+ 30 only..was wondering will it rust anot..den walk around..den i go home liao..
brought the 2 kids to the playground for half an hour..den head back for dinner..the two of them play until it seems like rain drops are falling down their head..haha..

19april09

2009-04-19T18:07:00.007+08:00

before

after(:

went to the dentist today..and the dentist told me that i can remove my braces alrd..haha..wad a surprised

really glad..after wearing it for 17months..

dear was there too(: I love him(:

so sickening..

2009-04-17T19:11:00.006+08:00

i seriously wish that i could just get married..and just forget about everything..but its seems like even getting married is a problem now...i hate it when out of sudden my mum just like throw me to a guy and think that in every way he could provide for me..assume this and assume that..its making me so damn frustrated luh..how to not be affected?not to be jealous?when she just dote on others more den her own kids.and asking me to survive on my own when i dun even have a job now..and dear jus say dun care luh dear..i know ..dun care..but its so i duno how to describe also..i only can wait till when that person is ready and able den i can have wad i want...

i seriously wanna live life to the max and be much more happier now den the past..but seems like its not working at all..humph..the only thing that im happy with is my bf has patience ..and a good temper to tolerate me.

frustrations

2009-04-15T19:59:00.002+08:00

when ure not feeling good.when ure stuck in life..when ur love ones really couldnt make it to be there for you when you needed them the most..and it feels suck...sigh..oh well...in this kind of situation the only thing is to go shopping..i really wish i could...but circumstances dun allow me to do so..imagine that i have stop buying clothes for more den 3 months...i think some of you might think that im kidding you..but its true luh..humph...no way i can do that to vent my frustrations for now....and my mum keeps thinking that my boyfriend is a money god that can provide me with whatever i wanna....at first i tot that she's jus kidding but after awhile i realised that she mean it.faint..sad right.i have never felt so empty in life before....
but thank God that before sch starts i have a temp assignment for F1 at the airport..so at least its not so bad.

i thanks God for every single day i have...every meal..every little thing...
i really hope that things will get better soon.

memories after memories

2009-04-13T17:05:00.021+08:00

capturing all the happiest moment with you..all the silly moments i rem..(:

ha ha

love you

2009-04-12T22:52:00.009+08:00

When you have to look away

When you dont have much to say

Thats when I love you I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak

Or see you walk with two left feet

Thats when I love you I love you,

endlessly And when your mad cuz you lost a game

Forget Im waiting in the rain

Baby i love you, I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight

You can count on me for life

Thats when i love you

When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you,

WhenI love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes

Cause the movie it made you cry

Thats when I love you I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes

Or when you laugh at your own jokes

Thats when I love you I love you, more than youll know

And when you forget that we had a date

Or that look that you get when you show up late

Baby I love you, I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight

You can count on me for life

Thats when i love you

When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you, When I love you no matter what

Thats when I love you When nothing baby

Nothing you do could change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you,

When I love you No matter what No matter...

2009-04-10T21:05:00.001+08:00

in this gu gu world no money mean no everything...sigh..

2009-04-08T18:44:00.002+08:00

遇上你那天起生命开始出现了奇迹天空笑得好美丽把手放进你手里心里默默宣誓只爱你一辈子也能肯定只是爱让人伤得再彻底在我的眼里还是会相信最真的人最后一定可以找到幸福途径
爱会让我坚强让我哭泣让我不懂我自己只有你的微笑来安抚我的心陪你走过狂风暴雨的日子等待的是天晴一起创造这场最完美的爱情我愿意
遇上你那天起生命开始出现了奇迹天空笑得好美丽把手放进你手里心里默默宣誓只爱你一辈子也能肯定只是爱让人伤得再彻底在我的眼里还是会相信最真的人最后一定可以找到幸福的途径爱会让我坚强让我哭泣让我不懂我自己只有你的微笑来安抚我的心陪你走过狂风暴雨的日子等待的是天晴一起创造这场最完美的爱情我愿意爱会让我坚强让我哭泣让我不懂我自己只有你的微笑来安抚我的心陪你走过狂风暴雨的日子等待的是天晴一起创造这场最完美的爱情我愿意
我愿意

2009-04-07T23:38:00.001+08:00

tired...very tired

2009-04-01T23:07:00.003+08:00

i realised that ure not the talkative u that loves talking to me that much online alrd..last time when u were chasing after me u talk so much think of how to win my heart..but its no long there anymore.i feel that u got lazy over everything.....

010409

2009-04-01T00:14:00.002+08:00

humph..dear diary

i duno whats really gonna on with me): i feel unhappy and sad very easily lately..and i duno how..
i really wish that i could do sth abt it but..i duno how...its just cannot be control.
i really love him..but i dislike it when i feel like..hey, he's not like the very first time when we met..someone whose willing to spend time with me..like take me to the park for a stroll..someone who loves to hug and kiss me...someone that wanna bring me to the beach jus to see the sun rise....

my friends like to ask me u and ur bf how alrd?..good anot?..where u guys always go for date...den they will start saying..me and my bf go to this place that place....u been there? ..........erm..no?and alot more other stupid qns that will make a girl feel very sad and jealous....maybe my life isnt as good as u guys ba.but im sure that one day i will go round the world.and visit much more places den all of u.

300308

2009-03-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

dear dairy

i think this is a very good place to vent my frustrations besides crying my heart out..
it became a habit for me to blog when im very sad or happy.ha ha

that 2 weeks of suffering was finally over..chicken pox really make me felt like im in hell..though its all over now..but there are still scars left behind...really need time to let them disappear..

well...been 9 months together...i guess u also dun rem..i felt that our honey moon period is really over..really! i think the honey mood period last for about 6months..i think is consider not bad alrd..ha ha..nevermind...hmm..now all the problems starts to appear..i duno wad he dun like about me..but im just upset that he cant give me his time,his company,his attention...we dun kiss like we always do when we were together at the beginning,no longer hug or kiss as much as we see each other in the pass...duno issit becos he dun love me as much as the past?or is his finances bothering him so much so that he really got so distracted..and forget about me sometimes?hmm..i really wish that we could really communicate more.hug more and kiss more to mantain this love run.i dk about you but i felt thatt way.i wanna love you more each day...like even more den the very first time i met you.i really understand your situation dear..i really hope that u could get out from what ure gg thru asap.i know its tiring..its mentally so stressful for u..when i saw u throwing temper,when u vent ur anger on ur things the very first time infront of me..i got very afraid..

afterall you know i love u alot dear..its love that keep me going on..pressing in..loving you even more..
i guess my birthday wish every year would be you getting out of debt till ur out of it.i really wish that you could be happier in everything that you do(:

well...went ikea,courts and giant last weekend..was quite a fun trip..but waited for the shuttle bus for damn bloody long!ZZZZZzzzzzz... but nevermind u were there for me..

never give up..im here for you

221309

2009-03-22T19:45:00.002+08:00

i love my deardear..i love him so much..youre always busy but i know ure trying your best to give me what i always wanna.thank you dear.

thanks for always being so sweet and patience with me..ha ha..
well im also trying to not to fan you tat much liao..u know u know?(: (:
i love you luh deardear..you know? very very much(: ha ha
like soooooooooo much..(:

and and i wanna faster recover frm chicken poxy!!!!!!!!

?

2009-03-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

i think we're not doing well..why must i always feel so much for someone?and think so much for someone? i seriously feel very sian..i duno how luh...but again if i dun think for him..i may be selfish..not understanding..inconsiderate?? issit really too much?
sigh..i really duno how.when i get so into him den i realised that he's not able to spare me his time.to spend quality time with me......nt doing anything but jus talk about everything and anything under the sun.its like impossible....

):

(:

2009-03-10T12:40:00.002+08:00

i dont normally envy other people's relationship.but time i really do..they were together for 4 years and still growing sweet,strong and steady.they were contented with what they had...and they enjoyed each other's company very much.pillar for each other.being accountable to each other..i think they're the only couple that i envy and look upon..that's really love luh..compared to others tt break up in 1-2 mnths time..and quarrel over silly things...

well,i seriously envy them and i really wish that mine can be like theirs.

2009-03-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

forgiven...

1210am

2009-03-06T00:10:00.001+08:00

i couldnt sleep ):

):

2009-03-05T11:57:00.008+08:00

i was quite..but actually very upset..and disappointed...i really think that being honest to your partner is the most important thing too besides trust..i have been swallowing all the unhappiness the past weeks and i just felt that you are not speaking what u actaully think..im seriously very disappointed...i accidentally log into the wrong msn acc and this msn chat box pop out few weeks ago.it was the girl that i din like.she's his ex..she always call him up to ask for this and that..which im very annoyed..and he always tell me that i dun feel like talking to her just wanna put down the phone quick..but i dun see that its liddat..u guys talk on msn..im fine..but why must you tell her those not very nice things in your r/s?u din care about my feelings..im the stupid one that always talk good about you infront of my parents my bestest girlfriend..i tot that i wounldnt be hurt anymore..i really hate this kind of feelings..pls dun sweet talk about how good i am when u also use it on other girls ..i was totally wrong about you...

i waited for 4 bloody months for you....and.....sigh

please...tell me that you love me and you miss me when u really mean it..i seriously feel very disgusted..

memories that i will always treasure

2009-03-03T22:19:00.006+08:00

"to have and to hold i love you till forever"

2march09

2009-03-02T14:14:00.002+08:00

mao tiun..deardear say humans are very mao tiun..haha..
i also think that im very mao tiun at times too..duno want or dun wan..hmm..sometimes in love you will also feel the same..when feel so in love with a partner you will want that person to stay with you for the rest of your life..but once you quarrel you will feel irritated you wont have the feeling to want to stay with that person at times..especially guys that dun wanna be responsible to what they have done....but some they took up the responsiblities but its no longer love..for wad?i think that they're not guys..

i believe that there were once u feel so eager to start a family with her to love her and treasure her with all your heart...to give her your very best..but that little someone came to earth too early by mistake..and now everything changes...

your attitude towards your wife changes ..your body language changes ..always venting your unhappiness and frustration on her..giving her the feeling that she's not so important anymore...to a young lady that love u so much and sacrifice for you..you treated her this way..you shout at her whenever youre unhappy..tell her off that becos she din study well ..she cant have a high pay job..it so demoralizing..so selfish of him to not think of the wife feelings.always think that your own parents are right..only listen to you own parents..telling your wife that she's not suppose to go back to her mum's place so often anymore even if he's not ard reason becos ure marry to me you shldnt go back so often...to my opinion i feel that why are you still staying with your parents?since you told your wife that ure marry to me..ure also marry to her wad..u yourself shouldnt cling on to your parents so much too.. so heartbroken when u hear of all these stories..getting married is not abt marrying only the wife or husband its always the two families..

in this broken down world there's so much unhappiness den happiness..sometimes its really hard to believe someone's promise to you...your marriage can be hell on earth if u marry the wrong person.

(:

2009-03-02T13:03:00.002+08:00

i was bored till...haha

280208

2009-03-01T14:10:00.000+08:00

270609

2009-02-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

i suddenly miss shopping and just shopping..chilling out with my bestest girlfren.i suddenly miss doing lots of things that i used to do in the past..hmm...

mummy's down with chicken pox lately..and i felt so disgusted..sigh.so afraid that i might get it..and i might have scars after i recover): sobsob...so sad can):

i had a good day spend with baby ystd....playing games together and going out to buy food and groceries home ..the feeling is so very sweet.. look forwad for more time spend with you dear..sweet quality time that i always wanted!(: i thank god that you were always there most of the time when i needed someone to talk to,talk nonsense with...someone who always ask me lame jokes questions to make me laugh..someone who would really try his very best to just make me happy and see me smile.someone who's willing to tell me it okay dear its alright in his embrace and tell me that he loves me... i always look forward to see you all day long...to cherish and love u as much as i can(:

i love u baby...
and its so so so so so very much.

love you(:

shit

2009-02-24T10:44:00.000+08:00

so shitty......sigh

L O V E

2009-02-23T17:08:00.004+08:00

i love you-you accept me as who i am
i love you-you were sweet
i love you-you were caring
i love you-you were sensitive
i love you-you were patience
i love you-you were kind hearted
i love you-you were an encourager
i love you - you stood by me
i love you-your lame jokes make me smile
i love you -you try to be there for me all the time
i love you-you were understanding
i love you-you wiped off my tears all the time
i love you-you smile at me
i love you-you suprised me
i love you-you told me how much i mean to you
i love you-you love hugging me
i love you-you brighten up my day
i love you-you kissed me on my lips each time you see me
i love you-you told me how much you love me
i love you-you told me u love me till infinity
i love you -cause you said i love you dear
i love you- you showed me whats love is really all about.

me

2009-02-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

sitting in the bus on the way to the airport...thinking of lots of things..my life,my family, elrond and friends.sometimes your family may not understand and may not be the one that comfort you after every failure or any unhappy moment you encounter..thats quite disappointing eh?? but i thank God for friends, friends thats willing to be there for you and hear your heart out.yeah, i thank God for pam.my mood was better after talking to her that night.been so long i last met up with her..and feels like we have never ending stuff to talk about.

actually i wasnt feeling very happy lately..over job and some personal stuff..there's so many things in my mind..and my heart..i know ure gg thru more stuff den me baby..but i wanna let u know that i care and i love u. things would be better..i really hope that you can be happier if not my mood will always be affected.and the both of us wont be happy.

i love you

140209

2009-02-16T22:23:00.006+08:00

thank you dear for everything(:

happy valentine day dear..i look forward for more v.day to spend with you.

i love you

160209

2009-02-16T21:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR(:

i feel kinda of sad and bad that we din manage to blow and cut a cake for your birthday..

i really wish we could...i really hope that next year would be better..

i love you baby..(:

LOVES

): so upset

2009-02-13T18:12:00.002+08:00

sigh..why everything ended up liddat...it became something that im afraid of doing..my mood just went swinging up and down...faint..i duno since when i became liddat.the feeling suck and so shitty.sigh.GOD.. HELP!! im in a situation that i duno how to overcome by myself despite encouragement from friends and love ones i still couldnt do it..i feel so er.....!!!!!

100209

2009-02-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

a person that is in the transition period always need their love ones to be around for them.

:D

2009-02-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

loves deardear so much

east coast

2009-02-09T21:30:00.002+08:00

(: happy happy..
every moment with you is so so so precious
i love u baby

真实 - 张惠妹

2009-02-08T11:21:00.001+08:00

真实

2009-02-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

你说的话在我心中生了根爱得很深所以心很疼记忆在我的心中翻滚是不是每一个人都像我一样笨只怕再问对彼此都太残忍我能感觉另外一个人我等等笑容换成泪痕爱在崩溃的时候比较真太多疑问知道答案又如何原来容忍不需要天份只要爱错一个人心痛比快乐更真实爱为何这样的讽刺我忘了这是第几次一见你就无法坚持孤独比拥抱更真实爱让人失去了理智会不会是我太自私拒绝更寂寞的日子放不开也看不见未来难道这种不完美才是爱情真实的样子

baby

2009-02-04T23:17:00.005+08:00

i duno why i just feel like blogging about you.its 12 midnight now..i guess ure preparing to sail off..sigh this time is a long one..5 days): my mind was full of you when i was in class just now.i jus counldnt stop i duno why.

i feel real bless realising that baby actually loved me so much..and im really amazed by his acts of love towards me..i always though that love aint as sweet and loving as it shld be..always have the mindset that love is always about fights,quarrels,unhappiness,bitterness,tears and only 1 percent of love and romance..

ever since baby stepped into my life..he filled my life with laughter and joy..i started to realised that love isnt so painful after all..i really feel that im much much more happier now..feels like years that we have been together...going on hol trips,movies,dinners..family day together... is always so memorable..im always enjoying every moment with you beside me.without you i wont feel complete...this is the first time i say without this person i wont feel complete.you really mean alot to me.so continue to love me even more!ha ha..

i know ure gg thru alot now, i know i cant do much..i really wish i could...but please know that im always there by ur side,supporting you..and to be your pillar of strength wherever you are..never give up dear..your love ones is always backing you up...

your love has cover up all your imprefection...

i love you sweetheart(:

3feb09

2009-02-03T13:02:00.004+08:00

im still in the process in getting use to the life im having now...in a weeks time i will be up in the air.i wonder how its gonna happen..feeling excited,yet nervous...so many things to look thru and remember..
dearie has been very busy too..with work ..duties after another..and many many more stuff..Feb is his busy month.. have lots of sailing out in the sea..meeting up is again so difficult..i duno when will i get use to the life im hving now.so difficult at times..when i miss him like hell.. in fact always,many times i will just cry..thruout my whole entire life i have never ever felt this way before..missing someone so much..thinking of him all day long..faint**** ha ha...i seriously cherish this sweetheart of mine..always giving me his fullest support be it mentally or physically..

dearie always try his very best to be there for me..giving his 101% in our relationship..waking up early just to send me to work.fetching me up and down to work and back home..not every guy can do this luh..and i really appreciate him for every single effort that he has given..i love you dear so much and i know u love me so so much too..
when i need someone to turn to.he will always be the 1st person that i can think of..always giving me his best advice.best encouragement....though sometimes he talk some kok but he's still my number one problem solver...someone to share anything and everything with.he will never force me to do things that i dun like..and the best thing is.. i can always be myself not someone else..
he will never add oxygen to fire..he's always the extinguisher fighting the fire and cool it with water..(: this is something that i really like about him...dearie may not be the most perfect guy in the world.but he's alrd very prefect to me...i may not be the most perfect girl with the best temper that he has ever met..but im really glad that i mean something to him..always loving me so much....

im really very thankful

i love u baby

(: lovelove

2009-01-28T19:47:00.012+08:00

My new year resolution is you to be happier baby(:

i love you

CNY 09 day 1

2009-01-26T19:40:00.010+08:00

dad and bro

with ah ma..

with mummy(:

and me taking pics never endingly...ha ha

its new year again..i start to feel bored eventually after so many years..ha ha

with love

pearl

24jan08

2009-01-25T00:32:00.012+08:00

心動

2009-01-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

sunday

2009-01-18T14:17:00.003+08:00

it sunday again..zzzz got to work tml! baby's hving running nose and he is sleeping right now..i guess sleeping is his favourite hobby..but its a hobby that i can never pick up..i have lots to study..but things just couldnt get into my mind..stress..damn sian..hai..hven been to anywhere..always dk what to do and where to go..feels bored and sian at times..but again as long as he loves me and be with me..maybe thats enough already??...always wanna see people happy but..............
)':

不，完美

2009-01-11T11:36:00.002+08:00

你常常說我很完美沒人能取代我給的一切我就以為我努力更完美我們就會永遠
完美並不美我們多虛偽你讓我的好變成一種罪完美並不美當你愛了誰我的完美也只是不完美
後來你說我太完美值得更好的陪在我身邊你不是我你怎麼能體會你有多麼珍貴
完美並不美我們多虛偽你讓我的好變成一種罪完美並不美當你愛了誰我的完美也只是不完美
完美並不美我們多虛偽你讓我的好變成一種罪完美並不美當你愛了誰我的完美成了罪
完美並不美我們多虛偽你讓我的好變成一種罪完美並不美當你愛了誰我的完美也只是不完美

sigh

2009-01-11T08:32:00.002+08:00

i feel bad if i dun understand..but again is not that im not understanding..i understand your feelings..i know ure sian.but im also sian too....alot of time when we're suppose to meet up..end up we cant..

anw.its sunday morning..i dk why i wake up so early...waking up haf disappointed..dk wad to do..its raining outside...so sian..and i have to go read up my notes for tml's test..stress!

i hope that the rest of today will get better..
i dun wanna be emo):

love pearl

batch 20

2009-01-09T14:42:00.001+08:00

sigh

2009-01-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

i feel so fucked up with myself..i dk why..

wad happens when i losen my bun up hair...hahas

2009-01-06T17:06:00.006+08:00

pearlpearl(:

4/01/09

2009-01-04T10:50:00.002+08:00

DIET PLAN STARTS NOW!WANA BE AS THIN AS POSSIBLE..

03012009

2009-01-03T21:09:00.003+08:00

even since baby came back frm the super long sailing trip...feels like i cannot live without him..my emotions change so much luh..its super not healthy..like a child that cant live without their mum or dad for just one moment.but i cant always stick to him 24 /7 he has his own things to do also..i dont know how ..so sad.like someone that's so desperate for love..sobsob):
he is someone who's so sweet and caring always..he never fail to make me smile when things aint the way it should be..holding me in his arms telling me that he love me, never fails to melt my heart...looking into his eyes captivates my soul.....
after new year he might be leaving for another mission for 3 months.though i say im fine if he's going..but deep in my heart i feel so upset..like he come back only for awhile and he have to leave me again..gg back to the staring at the phone looking forward for him to call me and talk for only 10mins that kinds of life): i know by then i shld be flying alrd but sigh...i duno why i become so emotional..feels so shitty and gugu...

Deardear deardear deardear...............

painful

2009-01-02T20:26:00.003+08:00

heartbroken): im so very sensitive about the topic of fat or skinny...i really dun wish to be so sensitive but i cant help it... why isit liddat? feels like im always so fat.no matter how much weight i lose...no matter how many meals i skip...im really very upset...no one will ever understand how i feel...sigh..

im fatty boom boom!

sentosa(: 31 dec08

2009-01-01T16:37:00.016+08:00

i simply love to snap pictures of him(:

2008-12-31T09:47:00.013+08:00

haha....tired and surprise

I JUST LOVE TO SNAP PICTURES OF YOU BABY(:

I LOVE MY DEAR DEAR SO MUCH(:
I'VE FOUND THE SWEETEST LOVE..

AND IS NOW ALL MINE(:

):

2008-12-28T13:02:00.002+08:00

i duno since when i became so emotional..i guess im so afraid of rejection...my tears just flow down when you say nvm and stuff..i duno why i feel so upset for wad ):
but i will be ok after doing some shopping..haha

xmas day08

2008-12-26T00:41:00.009+08:00

merry xmas eve 08

2008-12-26T00:12:00.017+08:00

YEAH!!!!!

2008-12-23T18:11:00.007+08:00

he's the first guy that gave me sth that i really like(:

my sweetheart is finally back by my side..

im happy(: i love you dear

21dec08

2008-12-21T11:10:00.001+08:00

在就要转身前忽然又想起你相遇的那一天漾着微笑的你那个微笑还是很美丽可惜那个人常常要让人哭泣太耀眼的城市不适合看星星就如同你的心不适合谈安定谢谢你让我伤过心学会爱情并非执迷人改变不了改变不了的事情记得要忘记忘记我提醒自己你已经是人海中的一个背影长长时光我应该要有新的回忆
人无法决定会为谁动心但至少可以决定放不放弃我承认我还是会爱着你但我将永不再触碰这记忆记得要忘记忘记经过我的你毕竟只是很偶然的那种相遇不会不容易我有一辈子足够用来忘记我还有一辈子可以用来努力我一定会忘记你

loves

2008-12-19T18:37:00.001+08:00

when ure happy i will also be(:

love(:

安靜了

2008-12-18T21:02:00.000+08:00

(:

2008-12-18T14:52:00.002+08:00

i know sailing may be tough at times..but im so proud of you dear(: i love you
im really really excited about seeing you again..its written all over my face..LOL..tts wad people ard me tell me...hahas..

(:

2008-12-16T13:14:00.002+08:00

im so excited!!!hahaha...counting down 4,3,2,,1 yeah!so happy...really excited..

15dec08

2008-12-15T19:39:00.001+08:00

i really wish that i can be stronger.

(:

2008-12-14T20:18:00.002+08:00

the moment i step into the cathay i feel the feeling of having you beside me..i dk why..i somehow feel that you were near..but actually ure so far away..hahas..walking pass billy bombers reminds me of that dinner and the bee movie..hahas..i cant help but to smile.. thinking about all the things that we did together never fails to draw a gugu smile on my face..i know i sound very silly..but im happy to have you...thanks for bringing me joy.i love u dear.

13DEC08

2008-12-14T01:14:00.002+08:00

my God is greater my God is over all..(:
today and forever(:
he is in control
the creator,the greatest love i have ever known.
you reign always.